独立

刚刚从朋友得知她恋爱了.从她笑容可以发觉到她很幸福.一直以来很凶的她,慢慢的变成小女人了.说话的语气也变得很温柔.在这祝福他们白头偕老.替他们感到开心,终于找到了自己心爱的人,真的不容易也.此时,有点被他们影响到.有点想要谈恋爱的感觉,但那是不可能的..

问问自己想找的对象会是怎样的.但好像没那种的权利来选择.一切由上天安排吧. 随缘. 慢慢习惯一个人的生活了.如果突然间,有人加入我的世界里,我真的还需要很长的时间来适应. 所以一直以来没有考虑这样的问题.只想要做好自己的本分.一切都已过去了,应该往前看才行. 虽然我选择的路并不容易走,但我并不会怪任何人,因为这是我的抉择.我必须站好,不管发生什么事,我还能自己应付.

前天看到一折新闻,有关一个妇女一直以来有个美满的家庭.由老公赚钱,自己是个贤妻良母把家照顾的很好.但很不幸的,丈夫因为重病而伤亡.事情发生之后,妇女没有勇气来面对这个家.就连亲戚朋友都不想见,开始自暴自弃.家里慢慢面对财务状况,因为由史以来都是丈夫负责赚钱.人往往当事情的发生,才发现自己的重要性.没有了依靠,再加上家庭财务的压力.真的让人觉得生不如死.

在我中学的时候,我常常觉得结婚过后的女人应该是个小女人.帮忙照顾家,照顾孩子.那才是真正的贤妻良母.但却忘了女人应该学会独立.我们不能预算我们将来会面对怎样的问题.如果, 你的另一比你先走,那你和孩子该怎么办?现在我很确定的告诉我自己,婚后的我还是一样的会为事业而忙.并不会给自己任何休息的理由.现在的我因该要学会独立,这是我一直我想要出去的原因.....

First time

my first time to be so happy. This morning my customer told me that he want to confirm their shirt size. haha.. even though their order is jz like a small fish but billion of happy come accross to my heart. Lastly, i did it!! This customer is quite special. Not sure is fate to meet him or not. As usual , everyday i will went to factory one by one. One times, i was wrong enter to this factory area, and i saw a guy was sterring me. Suppose i should ask him where to turn back to the main road. Before i said anything, he ask me who i want to find. I jz simply said that i want to meet ur purchaser. Then,
he told me " ah moi u park sini ,then jalan pergi sana office jumpa kenneth.".
i replied " o.. terima kasih. jumpa siapa tadi?"
guy : "kenneth."
me: " o.. miss kenneth a? thank you har"
guy: " you are welcome. by the way kenneth is a guy lar."
me: " wahahha..... sorry a. i ingat perempuan"
then, he help me to call up this guy.and finally i meet him.
coincident, he are looking for a shirt supplier. he through i was intro by somebody else.Actually i was jz simply walk in ur place, simply promote. haha....
This manufacture jz operate for two month. So is quite new factory.Hope got chance to have long term relationship with this factory. yuhoo!!
Even is not a big case, but from here i learn something new. At the same times, motivate me to go through in this line.....

Life

Long times never update my blog. Suddently feel like to crap here. After had read through my friends blog. I feel they all are quite enjoying with their life. Compare to me. I was like a people like loss direction. I had loss control of myself. When i need a friend to talk to me but there's no one is available. Sometimes situation happen when the friend that i'm looking for are not free to accompany me. at the end, i went to talk with my dog. how sad ya.

People said life is wonderful. Actually i feel the life for me now is very useless. I can't get what i want. I can't achieve that thing that i deserve. Sometimes will feel i was a loser. I was always thinking what kind of life that i want? too demanding makes me feel stressful.and I through stress will push me to look forward and more motivate me but actually i was wrong. I can't control my emotional then how can i makes things to be sucess?

Recently i had learn from my sister. I learn how stronger she is. She stil feel very happy even she had get rejected. She still can smile as normal. For me, once customer reject , i was like the hole world of people reject me. until that day, i jz realease taht i need to changes.

What in my mind right now is. Be myself. Always remember what situation you are. Dont makes too much of suspicion before you did something. Just do it! you will get the result. You might not good as others, but you still have to heading your own direction. min dez. a za a za figting!!

Presentation Skill

Today i had attended an advance English class.There is no lecture class but there is presentation for some of the group. They are present the business plan that we had submit previously. I like to see how people present. I like to observe their pronunciation, their behavior while they feels afraid, their presentation skills. Some people might feel that presentation is kind of wasting times activity.

From my view, we do presentation not only in class but also in out daily life. Presentation is a way that you transform something from you to others. Actually there is not a easy way to express what you want to express. It's need skill. You have to accept that some of people might not have the patient to listen what you are saying and you have to used different type of presentation skill to different people. This is because some of the people might feel you are weird if you talk too much. Learn from one of my friend is that he told me you have to see who is the people that you talk to. If that person is god then you have to used god language. If that person is ghost then you have to express your thing with ghost language.

From the presentation just now, some of students were just directly memorize everything from the slide and just read out to the lecturer. actually this kind of presentation is the most insecure and not good presentation skill. people might get bored and wont pay attention on what you are saying. Everything had already shown in the slides, what false still need to pay attention to listen on what you are present. i can know all the thing directly from the slides.This happen to me when i was just enter to university.Before presentation i will memorize all the things in my mind but when comes to presentation once i feel scare all the thing that i memorize will gone...

In general, to makes people more interest on your presentation. one important thing is don't spend too much of time to explain to the unnecessary thing. Used twenty minutes to present on 10 slides and slides font don't less than 30. this is to makes yourself directly to your point and don't waste people too much of time. Express your thing in a very summarize ways. When people are interested than only you talk more on what you want.

yes! finally.

hoho~~ merdekah!! i had finish my exam.. i should feel happy because i have freedom from getting sick of the exam.but feel emo de. i had try my hard to read and understand the subject. but yet still can make a lot mistake in exam. should put more more effort.please no more last minute hard work anymore kay. must have own planning especially time management is very important. nating can be change right now so just wish can pass in exam. very boring Sunday. hope can go back early.miss Herley who are waiting my warm huggie. hehe... new task should be start right now. no more delay. min desu remember work in efficient and fast ya!! huhu~~

Last paper

huhu~ last paper will be hold on tomorrow morning. is very very hard subject. Credit management. dun like to own people money then still me to learn this subject!! hmm..... relationship management approach, credit scoring, altman z score, loan pricing.. quite tough nei!! some more all this theory not necessary can be used in future. then actually wat is the purpose to take this subject? swt~~~ no mood to study arh!! @@@@@@@@......... tai gong,tai ma,zo zo,zong gong, zo ma. bless me kay.hehe..

不再担心了。。。

大考急着向我扑过来。没想到他这么的想念我。但没兴趣的我只好在这混一混。我知道你爱我可是可以给我十分钟透透气。“呵以吗” ^^突然间很想他。嗐。。已有一年半了吧？为什么还是这么的堕落。那天看见你消瘦的照片。有点责怪我自己。很想打通电话问候最近的你。却没有勇气。怕你不会接。又怕你接了以后又不知该从哪里聊起。最后拿起了电话，想找个人来呼呼。结果还是你。我想只有你最了解我。虽然我不必多说但你已懂我想要表达的东西。拿起点电话筒，听到你问候的声音，泪像水隆头一样不定的流下。妈妈告诉我水费虽然已下价但还是很贵呐。爱浪费的我，还是控制不了自己爱花钱的习俗。假装自己很坚强的声音却被你发现有点不对劲。安静的我，听着你在另一边喊这我的名字。心都碎了。虽然被你骂了一顿，不但不会生气反而觉得很爽。。虽然每一次都很想告诉你我的故事但当我想讲的时刻又觉得我没事了。不想然你担心就干脆别讲。这就是你爱骂我的原因。（我爽啊，你又能怎样？哈哈。。打我啦。。）跟你聊了一会真的好多了。三八秀谢咯。其实我知道你的存在很重要。可以不要每一次多强调好吗。（不要脸啊？呵呵。。）

最后还是选择不打了。我想你应该很喜欢你现在的生活吧。那我更不应该继续打扰你。说好已放下那就不要后悔。（老娘很讨厌pusing pusing, 因为到头来还是亏本生意）。学会了尊重自己的原则。老师常教的东西应该用嘛，不然会很对不起那些贵到要死的学费。哈哈。。其实也该谢谢你的啦。让我成长了那么多。thank you. thank you har. new mision "be more happier and more stronger SaiLoMon (SLM) huhu~~ gambatte!!

future

hole brain was thinking what should i do after i graduate from money making u (mmu). i still couldn't have a clear picture on what should do on the next step.izit because i haven't step on the first step. or izit because i never think of that. or izit because i still not understand with myself? so that i was still in the dark world which i still can't find the way out... until i found a group of people which willing to lead me even i was always stupid than others. my brain sometimes cant function as fast as other, i need more time to think. this is my weakness hope i can improve it and get away from "slow motion"! thank for the people that believe in me. even i was start from zero.thankSSss for the willingness and opportunities. i will work hard until we can get the result that we want. unbelievable new fighter will be born soon. a Za a Za fighting!!! let we fight to gather.. huhu!!



plz: i might have a lot of thing to learn..

Happy New Year

hoho~~ finally i have my own blog ady. I had deserve to have my own blog for long long times ago. just that dunno have the confident to created. It because i dunno what to write here. i scare this is just because i get influence by other to create my own blog. hope this is not. i just want to have my own place to tell everyone about my story. hope this can be retain until the time of my life is end. We might don't know what will happen on tomorrow so i just do whatever i want to do.hehe..besides, i can more clear on what character i have, did i have any changes when the time pass on. this is a good and right time for me to know about me.I'm going to social university soon. hope can be a active single frigther.u huu!! it my solo time.... hehe... this is the new place which can accompany me along my long long journey~~~~today is 1st day of this 2009. here to said happy new year to everyone in this world!! waiting for new changes....... a za a za fighting!!