黄美珍

她是超级星光大道第二届的一名参赛者。虽然没有在比赛中进入决赛。但今天她还是有机会成为一名很出色的歌手。我很喜欢她的性格。从外表看来，她是一个很酷的，不喜欢说太多话，对人总是冷冷的。但当她一唱歌，你就可以感受到她那种的爆发力。唱完了，你会很想得要她再唱第二首。所以你会很想一直听下去，当我每次听完她的歌，我会觉得整个人都很轻松。特别是心情很复杂的时候，我都会听她的声音。

她出生在一个平凡的家庭，父母并不是很有钱。但她为了要追求自己的梦想及减轻家里的负担。独自离乡到城市成为驻唱歌手。让我佩服的是她那份勇气与坚持。当然她今天的成就并不是只靠她的天分，她也遇过不少的波折及努力才有今天的成就。

我很欣赏她那种，凡事都不需要太过的张扬，低调一点，但攻击型很强的个性。这一来可以保护及埋没自己，一来就是选择适当的时候，才来发挥自己的能力。^^ 最重要的就她的爆发力！

领悟

今天，得到很大收获。一直收在心里面的障碍全都被你说中了。当人遇上困难时，常常都会为自己找很多借口。虽然今天你说的话有点气，真的让我觉得你对我真的很失望。 其实你说的都没错。我真的是一个失败者。做了半年的销售，自己还是不了解自己应该做的事情。 我不只在浪费我的时间，反而也耽误了你们所给我的宝贵机会。是我自己没争气。。总是自暴自弃，没用心的做每件事。今天你会有这样的决定，我并没有怪你的意思。反而要谢谢你才对。恐怕以后再也没机会听见你的指教了。。。

其实在我们的交谈之中，真的让我领悟很多。从你身上让我体会，就算你付出了几多，虽然到最后没有的到你想要的结果。但一切都是值得的。最重要的是你在过程中得到的经验与知识。那是没有人可以从你身上抢走的宝物。我们并没有太多的时间可以浪费。是我们自己来决定自己想要走的路，自己应该负起责任。

还有一个月的时间，最后的决定都不能怪任何人。 能不能继续就由自己的努力来做决定吧。就尽自己最大的努力。还没到最后一刻都不要放弃。放弃永远都比失败还要痛苦。。。

恭喜

今天下午，接到一位朋友的电话。得知二十八日他会上来吉隆坡。原本还以为他是为了公事而来的。但从他却告诉我大学的朋友也会上来。难道我们有聚餐会。。。原来那天是一个很重要的日子。就是他要订婚了。哈哈。。有点惊喜。当听到这个消息后，真的很替他们感到高兴与骄傲。好不容易的，这样一路走来，之间虽然会有一些的波折和小差距。但两人都一起克服了种种的考验。这是一个好不容易的事啊。两人在一起，虽然彼此相爱，也不能少了法律上的见证。那天之后，在法律上你们就是夫妻了哦。永远都忘不了你们俩在大学帮了我很多。真的感到万分的感谢。 你们给了我很多的欢笑和支持。不管在功课上还是生活上都谢谢有你们的陪伴。此外，我感到抱歉，如果之中我做错了什么。觉得有点内疚，这些日子以来， 我都没帮上忙。你们却不吭声，反而关心我。真的谢谢。在这祝你们俩永入爱河，亿年好和， 早生贵子。

（慧，强几时到你们呢？哈哈哈。。快哦！:p）

无能为力

进入新的一年了。回头想想，好像都没有特别的事情被我达成。好失败。。有件很重要的事一直都没完成。不知应该从何开始。没智慧。。虽然主持都跑来跟我说一定要回去帮他。但之中一定会有很多的波折。我该这么做？？

独立

刚刚从朋友得知她恋爱了.从她笑容可以发觉到她很幸福.一直以来很凶的她,慢慢的变成小女人了.说话的语气也变得很温柔.在这祝福他们白头偕老.替他们感到开心,终于找到了自己心爱的人,真的不容易也.此时,有点被他们影响到.有点想要谈恋爱的感觉,但那是不可能的..

问问自己想找的对象会是怎样的.但好像没那种的权利来选择.一切由上天安排吧. 随缘. 慢慢习惯一个人的生活了.如果突然间,有人加入我的世界里,我真的还需要很长的时间来适应. 所以一直以来没有考虑这样的问题.只想要做好自己的本分.一切都已过去了,应该往前看才行. 虽然我选择的路并不容易走,但我并不会怪任何人,因为这是我的抉择.我必须站好,不管发生什么事,我还能自己应付.

前天看到一折新闻,有关一个妇女一直以来有个美满的家庭.由老公赚钱,自己是个贤妻良母把家照顾的很好.但很不幸的,丈夫因为重病而伤亡.事情发生之后,妇女没有勇气来面对这个家.就连亲戚朋友都不想见,开始自暴自弃.家里慢慢面对财务状况,因为由史以来都是丈夫负责赚钱.人往往当事情的发生,才发现自己的重要性.没有了依靠,再加上家庭财务的压力.真的让人觉得生不如死.

在我中学的时候,我常常觉得结婚过后的女人应该是个小女人.帮忙照顾家,照顾孩子.那才是真正的贤妻良母.但却忘了女人应该学会独立.我们不能预算我们将来会面对怎样的问题.如果, 你的另一比你先走,那你和孩子该怎么办?现在我很确定的告诉我自己,婚后的我还是一样的会为事业而忙.并不会给自己任何休息的理由.现在的我因该要学会独立,这是我一直我想要出去的原因.....

First time

my first time to be so happy. This morning my customer told me that he want to confirm their shirt size. haha.. even though their order is jz like a small fish but billion of happy come accross to my heart. Lastly, i did it!! This customer is quite special. Not sure is fate to meet him or not. As usual , everyday i will went to factory one by one. One times, i was wrong enter to this factory area, and i saw a guy was sterring me. Suppose i should ask him where to turn back to the main road. Before i said anything, he ask me who i want to find. I jz simply said that i want to meet ur purchaser. Then,
he told me " ah moi u park sini ,then jalan pergi sana office jumpa kenneth.".
i replied " o.. terima kasih. jumpa siapa tadi?"
guy : "kenneth."
me: " o.. miss kenneth a? thank you har"
guy: " you are welcome. by the way kenneth is a guy lar."
me: " wahahha..... sorry a. i ingat perempuan"
then, he help me to call up this guy.and finally i meet him.
coincident, he are looking for a shirt supplier. he through i was intro by somebody else.Actually i was jz simply walk in ur place, simply promote. haha....
This manufacture jz operate for two month. So is quite new factory.Hope got chance to have long term relationship with this factory. yuhoo!!
Even is not a big case, but from here i learn something new. At the same times, motivate me to go through in this line.....

Life

Long times never update my blog. Suddently feel like to crap here. After had read through my friends blog. I feel they all are quite enjoying with their life. Compare to me. I was like a people like loss direction. I had loss control of myself. When i need a friend to talk to me but there's no one is available. Sometimes situation happen when the friend that i'm looking for are not free to accompany me. at the end, i went to talk with my dog. how sad ya.

People said life is wonderful. Actually i feel the life for me now is very useless. I can't get what i want. I can't achieve that thing that i deserve. Sometimes will feel i was a loser. I was always thinking what kind of life that i want? too demanding makes me feel stressful.and I through stress will push me to look forward and more motivate me but actually i was wrong. I can't control my emotional then how can i makes things to be sucess?

Recently i had learn from my sister. I learn how stronger she is. She stil feel very happy even she had get rejected. She still can smile as normal. For me, once customer reject , i was like the hole world of people reject me. until that day, i jz realease taht i need to changes.

What in my mind right now is. Be myself. Always remember what situation you are. Dont makes too much of suspicion before you did something. Just do it! you will get the result. You might not good as others, but you still have to heading your own direction. min dez. a za a za figting!!